Jeff, totally understand where your coming from, been there myself recently. It is painful, very painful. Almost 28 years painful. If you need a sympathetic ear, i,d be only to glad to listen. ( And talk if required ). Keep ya chin up buddie, and try and look ahead. Lifes too short, After losing my dad in October, who i loved dearly, i,m carrying my best friends coffin, at his funeral next wednesday, taken tragically at the age of 54. After our first ever sea fishing trip to Anglesey in July, our next trip is all we talked about, sadly, its not going to happen. Jeff, try and make the most of today, with the people you still love and care about. Take care, i,m here if you need me.
Regards, Derek F.